http://mfile.akamai.com/2838/wmv/ca..._anselmo_hi.asx

Its Phil talking about Dime.

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I've seen that, and yes its sad.

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And once again, the guy with dial-up is left out...

Is that by any chance Phil saying his apologies to Dimebag? I read and interview with him talking about how he was sorry recently.

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Its pretty much his interview, but in the video he shows ALOT of emotion.. and even cries.

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I can only imagine what he must have felt like.

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Yeah I've watched that, it's a really emotional. I can't even imagine how he's feeling right now.

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i can't see either (at least now) dial-up.

well, it was his band for about 12 years (phil). he was angry about it and he was acting really shitty towards dime and vinnie, now that dime's dead, phil would be one of the hardest hit, because of the bad words and he never got to say sorry to dime, i sympathise for phil now.

nvm, the edited shit was not ment for this thread i am so sorry

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That was hard to watch, poor guy looks absolutely ruined. I'll even not make fun of his haircut.

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damn i thought i posted that shit in an RTT, fuck, dude i just watched that video, and it fuckin suckes man, i cant stop cryin

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this one goes out to the coolest guy on earth, he never did anything to hurt us, he only helped us become better at what we do and what we are, i have never felt as bad and as painfull as i feel right now, and i cant even comprehend the pain that dimes family and friends are feeling right now, its just so sad, but i am trying to enjoy the times, enjoy the life he lived, and what he accomplished, and it makes me feel better inside when i think like that, This one goes out to diamind or DIMEBAG!! motherfucking abbot darrel and everyone else that was taken so tragecly at columbus, i cant even comprehend the pain you are feeling, and i hope that you can find the good things in life that make you feel beter, and try to relate that to good things dimebag did, and jst remember, one of the greatest men alive, i love you dimebag, i love you man...

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I couldn't see it either, but I listened to it. Yes, it's sad that it happened the way it did. I do hope he checks his ass into rehab though. Obviously he was pretty lit when he did the interview or whatever that was. I can't help but think that due to what he said, he's feeling sorry for himself and blames everyone else for the way his career got screwed in the end. It's still hard I'm sure, but it sounded selfish to me, too. But like I said I hope he gets his shit together. He needs to make amends with himself as well as Vinnie and the family.
God bless him.

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Nope, not getting the picture, but I'm listening to it.

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This is fucking hard to listen to. Holy shit dude... Now I feel like an asshole for ever questioning Phil and not making a statement before.

God damn, that was fucking hard.

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the least he could have done was make a statement while sober.

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Dumbass. When I could finally drink on it, I wasn't sober for a week. I'm not a major alcoholic or one of Dime's closest friends. If he was anything resembling sober I'd probably doubt his veracity. Everyone shut the fuck up about his obviously insobriety. It's not like he was drunk on the job and told his boss he'd like to fuck his wife. He's drunk after one of his best friends in the world, who he was having a feud with and not speaking to, got shot in the head at a concert. You take that as a moment to complain that he's not as sober as you'd like? You petty fucks.

I never, ever thought I'd ever see Phil cry.

shit i didnt even think he was drunk...at least not that drunk

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Honestly, I couldn't tell. I also didn't have the video for some reason, but I don't know. But he was crying while he was shooting it, so I figured thats what it was. Does it really matter?

Besides, dick, I don't think I could've done that sober, and Phil is more of a man than any of us.

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that shit is hard to watch man I don't thinkhe looks that drunk, but if he's drunk I sure as hell don't blame him.

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I wouldnt say he was drunk, Depression can make people act strange. I hope he gets some help though... the last statement scares me "This is the last you will see of me in a LOONG time"

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Damn, i cant view it here because im on dial-up but ill try and see it soon, it sounds like a must watch..

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Yeah, that was pretty fucked up. I just hope he doesn't do anything stupid...

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I'm on dial up and I keep listening to bits and pieces at a time, and the picture is stuck on one frame. It's extremely sad, but I can't help but laugh because the frame that it's stuck on he has a "durrr" look on his face. But yeah, even though I don't know superjoint ritual, that last statement will probably really piss off his record label. Atleast he blames the news media for it.

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Fuck poor Phil man. and fuck you people who are giving him shit for being fucked up, the man is devestated right now and all you can say is well he should have been sober. Fuck that.

Phil don't do anything stupid bro.

(granted he won't read this but it needs to be said.)

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yet again, i almost broke watching that, heavy shit

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I wouldn't be surprised if he does happen to come across this site every now and them. Hell, almost anything put into google will have a link to somewhere on here.

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Is it possible to save the file, because i cant stream it..

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If you save the file, it's still a stream, meaning you must be logged on to open it.

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Oh i see.

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Wow, thats a side of Phil that I have never seen before. He even says "of 17 years". I definately have more respect for the man now.

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holy guacamoly

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I wouldn't condemn him for getting wasted because of the fact. I'm just thinking of situations I've experienced myself when family or friends have had loved ones meet untimely deaths and what effect drinking has had on their emotional stability. Sometimes they have to hit bottom in their mourning before the climb back up. I'm also wondering if his remark about not being seen is because he is going to get his shit together. The media can be cruel and isn't sympathetic. I hope he's looking out for number one which is himself right now.

I'm all for those unusual experiences of the deceased appearing in dreams to give comfort. Family members have experienced it. I hope maybe he does, too. It can be powerfully healing.

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Just saw it..

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It sucks how the Abbot family would n't let Phil go to the funeral, because it's not the time to hold grudge's.
Yeah i gain a bit of respect back for the Phil but it's fuckin stupid how he's tryna hold the media and magazines partly responsible for Dime's death. When it was Phil who was the one who actually ended Pantera.

PST is a brilliant man, Trend. And I agree with you. i have no urge to deal with the music community in GENERAL at the moment.

Like I said, I feel bad about saying anything bad about Phil and the fact that he didn't come right out and say anything about Dime's death. The man is obviously in alot of pain, and it took balls to say what he did, how he did it, and the fact that he didn't hold anything back.

this one's for you Phil. Get better man.

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This is why I have so much respect for Trendkill. Even if we had disagreed, chances are he would have stated his case well enough that I'd be able to respect his point. All I intended to say in this thread is basically what he said. Unfortunately I wasn't able to hold back when I saw criticisms of his (Phil's) insobriety. But he's definitely regained my respect, and I similarly thank BLS for making sure I'd see this.

Of course, on the other hand, that's more or less the reason I've been around lately.

he cant hear you...

shut up warlock, get the fuck out of my thread

THNX!

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yea, you dont think i fuckin know that man, fuck off

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Wow, I just came across this thread. I had been wondering about Phil's silence. Personally I always have felt Phil was somewhat deluded and self-centered. Never could totally 100% relate to his attitude in interviews and what not. But I will say this, it's part of what made him so awesome at what he did. When I go back and listen to CFH or VDP I can hear his genius coming through so strong.

I have no doubt that they were the best of brothers, all of 'em. I can't help but hurt for him when watching this. I know how bad Dime's murder made me feel inside. Can't comprehend what it did to all those who knew him personally, because apparently he was just one of the coolest most fucking humble guys you will ever come across.

As for Phil, it's been no secret he's had some problems for a while. I hope he gets through them. But I don't blame him for being at the absolute fucking bottom of the barrel and/or bottle after this. Listen to Hollow and you can get a feeling for some of what he might be feeling.

I quoted Hate Eternal above because I agree. I don't understand why Phil wasn't welcomed to pay his last respects to Dime. Of course none of us knows the details of exactly what happened, what was said or done between them all, but in the end that must have compounded Phil's pain ten times, maybe a hundred times. Phil, I hope ya pull through it man. I'm pretty sure Dime would've wanted you to. These guys were the best. I just wish I could meet a few guys as talented as they all are/were and make a band happen that has the kind of impact and greatness they had. That would be the fulfillment of a lifelong dream.

Ok, I'm done rambling now, if you got this far...thanks for reading it.

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Well just lately I started coming back here again and just found this. Seems I'm not the only one that started to feel detached after this happened. It is sad what Phil had to say and I can't believe that the Abbot family wouldn't let him say good bye. That must hurt a lot. I hope Phil gets it together soon. He can't let this bother him forever. I would like to see him sober his life up and get born hard again myself. It was nice of him to make that video saying how he felt and sending his blessings to the friends and families of those people that were killed. I just wish he had not pointed the evil finger at the media. He should have saved that for another time because it takes away from his message to the friends and families that lost loved ones.

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if i were a mod, you would be banned. if i were within 10 feet of you, you would be dead.

your either a 9 year old or a fucking mooron.and who the fuck are you to say he cant hear us.You need to be shot you fucking idiot,pay some respect to those who give a shit or die!

It doesnt matter if he can hear me or not, its everyone else hearing what i felt about him, and if he can see how i feel and how everyone else feels it makes it that much better. I was pretty damn drunk when i wrote that whole statment, but i just read it sober and its like reading something from my subconcious, i really dont even remember saying things like that.

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Still he is a cunt for saying that,and you dont have to answer to him,he should be answering to you it was a good fucking statement you made,cheers man.

thank you

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my opinion on phil has taken a complete 180 degree turn. i respect him more now than i ever did while Pantera was still together.

Philip H Anselmo; On Behalf of Darrell Lance Abbott-Pt. I

I’ve been stumbling around in a coma of loss. No truer lyric has been written than “You don’t know what you’ve got, ‘til it’s gone.” To explain my side of things with the hiatus of Pantera, please give me a moment and think about what I say. Think.

I joined the band in late ‘86/early ‘87, and the chemistry clicked like a vice grip, we hit it off like four bad mother fuckers could. Perfection. Dime, Vince and Rex could play fucking anything. You pick the style, they could pull it off. So in reality we had to find out where our musical hearts lay strongest. After short deliberation, our intention was to be the most devastating ‘hard core-heavy metal’ band in the world.

You know, when the so called heavy metal press first got wind of ‘Cowboys from Hell’ they were absolutely unsure what to think. More bad reviews than good at the time. The Reason? They had never heard a band quite like us before, and I can’t blame the press or anyone for not hearing the full experience, but there were flashes in songs like ‘Primal Concrete Sledge’, and “Message in Blood’. Once again as I have said before, the press remained basically unimpressed, BUT, with the heavy metal audience, the phenomenon of Pantera had already begun. Slowly but surely, the fan base grew larger and larger (the best fans in the world I say still!)

The LP that I believe was the first ‘true’ Pantera LP was our second major release ‘Vulgar Display of Power’. As a band, our brotherhood and obvious originality and musicianship cemented us as one of the most feared and loved bands ever to step on a stage. That, is what we all lived for. We figured as long as our awesome audience was moved (head banging, skanking, stage diving, of course) we would play for us and them. Of course we had a deep connection with both our music and our audience, and we were also very different, image and attitude wise… It was extremely rare to see a lead vocalist or anyone with a shaved head unless you looked deep into the underground with bands like the Cro-Mags, Agnostic Front, Rose Tattoo, etc…(I didn’t mean to leave anyone out). The difference between us and these great bands was the fact that we also had an insanely great guitar player who was respected alongside the best of the best, and a rhythm section so unique and tight, goddamn they were tight, tight is and always will be the word. I guarantee throughout our 17 year existence it would be extremely difficult to have one memory of Rex or Vince messing up or playing a part wrong ever. That to some people may be amazing or impossible, however I mean what I say 100 times over. They were the best damn musicians I’d ever seen or heard. Period.

With ’Far Beyond Driven’, our 3rd major offering, going to #1 on the Billboard top #200, it seems appropriate to say that some Rock Magazines were taking notice, one way or another. Guitar magazines throughout the world were right on the money by calling Dimebag the best axe man of the time. That was absolutely true and within his lead style, influenced by the likes of Eddie Van Halen, Randy Rhodes, Ace Frehley, and himself (it’s true, I believe most all great lead guitar players have their own style to hear and influence. By god Darrell had that type of talent and then some). His rhythms he came up with, in ways, probably became even more influential. His influences were extremely varied and unique from guys like James Hetfield (Metallica), Kerry King and Jeff Hannemen (Slayer), Judas Priest to Motorhead, AC/DC, ZZ top, Robin Trower and even some of the ultra underground bands I would play him. In all honesty he preferred a more accomplished guitar player than some of the rawer sloppier stuff that I adored, but what he did love about the rawer stuff was its all out assault on the ears. Bless him, he did love that. Within his style he commanded and demanded the best out of himself, and all of us around him. So I will say to everyone in Texas that ever called me a friend, and especially all of my brothers that helped work with us as Pantera on the road crew; I love all of you. To the fans in Texas, and the rest across America and the world, beware of the shit you read in rock magazines. When these pathetically titled ‘journalists’ (not all of them, but a lot still), had finally caught on to the fact that we, Pantera, had beaten all the odds a band could, and the press had no choice but to build us up until it seemed that they were all of a sudden desperate to make us supermen in the magazines, it was an assignment. It wasn’t true to them, they were getting paid for it. We weren’t supermen, just a great band. During our whole career, there were always those interviews where you could tell that the ’journalist’ didn’t know shit about our band, using wrong facts, whether they made us look good or bad, not knowing a thing about our characters, our musicianship, or our careers; asking the same questions, or as ’journalists’ love to do, just plain making up whatever they wanted. For every ‘journalist’ out there, these facts may or may not fit in with the way you personally do your work , but I know and so the fuck do you that this load of bullshit behavior, that thousands of fans read on a regular basis, is absolutely irresponsible, and it’s obvious that you truly don’t care about your responsibilities to the fans, or how many lives you truly destroy. It’s all about what sells magazines, isn’t it?

A month has gone by since we, his former band mates, his current band mates, his friends and fans around the world, have lost Dimebag. I can’t necessarily speak for them, but for me, it’s the first thing that comes to mind when I awake, if I sleep at all, still. It is also the last thing I think about as I lay down to rest. God damn it still hurts me. I want to be there for Vinnie Paul no matter how long it takes. I want to be there for Rita if she’ll have me. I want to be there for the Kat and the rest of the crew as well, people that have been a part of my life for 17 ½ years. Once again, I’m hoping my biggest hope; that they realize that the bad stuff written about our bands and ourselves was coerced nonsense made to sell magazines. Bare with me, please. I beg you all. By the way, all of the level headed fans that write in and offer support, that in itself is the best therapy I’ve received yet. I have considered retirement because of a broken heart, but also in my heart, I cannot let my fans down. As the days go by I realize that I’m at war with some things inside of myself, that I don’t mind sharing with you: I always, truly always, no matter if it was my own dreams just coming to the surface, if we, just the four of us, were to sit in a room together, we’d have been laughing, crying, and laughing again. The weight of the world would be lifted off of our shoulder as we hugged each other. Play together again? I have a suspicion that our fans would demand some type of reunion. My god I thought of that so many times and because what our fans wanted, they usually got. It may have taken a little longer, but think about how long it took the original Black Sabbath to play together again!?

Then in one night early December, 2004, an event changed the entire year and our entire lives into one of the cruelest sort. Some mentally disturbed individual …crushed the dream. He took one of the most talented, extroverted people ever to grace this earth. I’m crushed for the loss of my friend that I loved, for Vince his brother, for Jerry his father, for Rita his life companion, for all of his good friends, for every music fan that was inspired and loved his playing; especially those who were lost or were injured that night we lost Darrell. None of what I have said will ever bring him back, and it hurts so bad. I add very humbly in hope that no one else out there ever has to go through something like this; Keep your loved ones close.

Yours Truly, I can take no more at this time-

Philip H Anselmo