a short story written by me in regards to a certain Sean person. robert know who. this is how he made me feel, manifested into fiction. Adrian said it was lovely and astounding and made him think but that just adrian. now tell me your opinions.
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The Importance of Punch.
By Whitney Tracy




I hated him. I could not pull myself away from him. It felt so good to hate him and be angry with him. Often, it was like he deserved to be hated. Even after he left for good, I would still be shouting at the walls. I rue the day I met him, yet, somehow I reminisce about it whenever I’m not fuming about someone else.
In my lovely little loft in my lovely little town, I was rather lonely. I held a grudge or two against the people that had done wrong against me, namely everyone, but I never publicly expressed my animosity. I worked long hours at the local Kroger and as people passed through my lane I slapped on a smile that stung. I was pretty much numbed against the initial sting when he came through my lane.
He was different than any of the frequents. He didn’t buy anything unusual, he was just different. He sulked and sauntered at the same time. The man carried himself with the sarcastic cynicism of a whore but with the solemnity of cadaver. We all have seen those celebrities that instantly make anyone feel joy and utter satisfaction with a glance. Just the same, there are those that stir antipathy and boil unsavory emotions like near-burnt macaroni and cheese. Well, he reminded me of over-cooked, watered-down EZ-Mac with essence of anchovy. He was happy. So cheerful, as if he was mocking joy itself. He was begging to be hated to me.
Still I held my fake smile that made me look like I had too much botox. He smiled back and we shared a deeply superficial conversation. It went like this:
Him-“How’s the weather?”
Me- “Pardon?”
(I wasn’t paying attention, I was too busy trying to keep my face taut)
Him- “I said, how’s the weather?”
Me- “Why are you asking me? There’s a window over there.”
(He laughed at this, I scanned the milk.)
Him- “Sorry. What’s eating you?”
(I don’t understand why he was talking like he knew me.)
Me- “ Nothing, Paper or plastic?”
Him- “It was nice talking to you.”
Me- “ Uh-huh, yeah. Buh-bye. Have a nice day, sir.”
Then he left.
2 weeks later, I got a call from him. He wanted to meet up and go out. I said no. I asked him how he got my number and he said he had read my name tag at the Kroger and he looked me up in the Yellow Pages. I told him I wasn’t listed. He said “Buddha doesn’t like liars”. I hadn’t been anywhere lately besides work so we went out for lunch. What could go wrong? Nothing.
So we went to Cinnabon and got to know each other. Strangely, I felt myself attracted to this dead thing with the incessant smile. I could talk to him and relate to him. The shock of finding someone, or rather being found by someone like that appalled me. My whole life, I was alone and I refused to let anyone break through my walls. I was enraged at the fact that I had to exist in such a disgusting, vile place like Earth. Then this crazy dead mouse sneaked into my fortress and was eating up my precious storage of hate that was my only weapon, my only cover-up for my misery. Suddenly I found that, I had fallen for the bastard hippie and my life would fall apart if I kept him any longer.
I started coming up with excuses to get out. I couldn’t let love make me soft. I told him I found his empty bottles under my couch, even though we both knew full well that he abhorred drinking. I shouted at him and tried to get him to be angry back at me, but it never worked. He always just apologized for what I said he had done and gave me a hug.
One morning he left for work after more of my random accusations. I had enough of him! My hatred for everything came flooding back into me in tsunamis. I hated everything more now. I hated with all my strength. I hated him for his peaceful eyes, his immaculate skin, his eloquence, and his mouth! From his mouth he sprinkled little bits of affection and when he opened it wider in defiance, it poured logic and philosophy and chilling composure like fruit juice that stagnated on my carpet.
He came home later to find me seething and fuming and a total wreck. I had smashed everything I treasured my whole life. His stupid philosophies had drained all meaning from material possessions. Heirlooms filled with the sweetness of time and good memories began to stink. Furniture was over turned and my face burned with the unfamiliar persecution of tears. He looked at me and said “ So you finally gave up?” I was looking at a bee stuck in the lamp above my head and I felt for it. For once I actually felt sympathy for something. I wanted to be compassionate to the lesser being, but that would show softness. He followed my eyes. He said, “Or were you trying to get rid of a pest, of something that has been coaxing you away from your tribulation that you hold so dear? Poor little bug.”
I couldn’t take it.
I gripped the gun.
Prayed it was loaded and it would bring me deliverance.
My savior.
I pulled the trigger. He was gone. Finally I could be free from that which was going to show the world who I was inside. Tender, little clam. Me. I wasn’t rid of him though. I was always reminded of how I was too weak to love by the juice stagnating on my carpet.

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what did you think?

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Funny.................and all this time I thought they didn't have Kroger in Germany. Very morbid, descriptive, sounds-like-something-you-would-get-in-a-forward, whatever.
Glad you're back.

Soulinsane......YOU'RE WELCOME

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nice.

but thats not a short story, that took me some time to read

naw. they don't have kroger's here. but it's fiction again it doesn't relate anything to my life except for emotions. i just thought of a random breed (yes breed) of grocery store.

sorry...i thought it was short.

what's you're fave few lines?

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two favoritest lines "Suddenly I found that, I had fallen for the bastard hippie and my life would fall apart if I kept him any longer." and "The man carried himself with the sarcastic cynicism of a whore but with the solemnity of cadaver."
this is about Dowdy right? the little fag. I hate that kid. he called me at ten at night and didn't care when i told him never to do it again. he also....yeah, all that stuff. I still want to torture him (see "The Torture Chamber") I think he would deserve everything in there.

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That was one wicked rhyming scheme

it ryhmed? where?

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I'm thinking it had an ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ rhyming scheme. am I right?

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eactly man exactly. luscious.

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everypost she makes is so random it makes me cringe. it doesnt help that english isnt her first language, so its twice as hard to figure out what the hell she means

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i dont know but the flow was magnificent

Thanks d-o! This is why I like you Applish, you write beautifully. You have wonderful self-awarness and insight to right like this. The theme and structure have soul. It's the best thing I have ever read on this forum. You put everything in it that needs to be there, even if it doesn't make since on the surface to others. All the pieces are their to put together something for ourself, no more and no less. A++A+A+A+, I love it

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soulinsane is one positive guy, the only person ive seen him get mad at was nothingbutassface

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Transient, You're a not accepting little bitch.

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what do you mean?

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think about it, all i've heard you say is that you don't like all the randomness, even though she's the only one that talks about actually nice things, and not things that make us think about death and doom. open up dude. be more accepting.

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?
im not negative. my posts might seem like that, but i havent posted any lyrics ive written or anything...nor am i all about death and doom

and her random shit is kind of irritating

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shes not random what are you talking about

Bahahah you have 633 posts transient

yep, post whoring it up

but i dont post just for the number

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yes it comes straight from your heart

thank you for the appreciation soul. Transient, thank you for your opinion too. I get the point. But is my randomness the only thing you feel like posting about on my threads?I'm wondering because I'm not going to change for you or anyone else and that should be rather obvious unless you expected me to. Don't waste your breath.

3 more days of school. I swear I will sue my geometry teacher. blech.

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hah. it's my time to gloat. i got out of school on may 21st. it is awesome, i can sleep in till twelve instead of freakin' five o'clock in the morning and i can play guitar all day. it's the sweetness...

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yeah, but when do you go in to school? ive got this week then a week of finals

hey pineapplely-i wouldnt want you to change, its just confusing

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2 more days of schooooool!!!!!!!! i hate exams.

transient, sorry its confusing. but i don't understand why?

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I got all "A"s on my exams, i'm so happy. Y'all must be just wanting to kill me now.

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no reason, dont worry about it pineappley


as for the finals, i was all happy when i heard my math final was curved. then MetalThrashingMad informed me that when you're in the upperhalf, YOU get screwed.

i got an 89.

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Last night I started to read it and couldn't focus so I gave up so I reread it today. I think the start was a big slow or something because I again had a hard time consentrating on it. Once I got into it a bit I thought of different people I know that fit some of those patterns of personality. It wasn't too bad then.
The only thing I didn't like really was the two almost identical phrases and that dropped it a notch for me. I think the rest shows you're far too creative to let that stay that way.
Different idea for sure. Good duel character study.

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thanks for your input L'B! *hugs for you*

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nice job...seems all you write about is boys though...ahh who cares well done!

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probably thats whats most improtant

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yeah, no joke there. I think what' most important to her is boys and emotions and punk rock. (heh heh heh)

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1. I don't like punk rock that much anymore. That was a phase. I don't listen to any one particular genre and I am NOT "punk"
2. Bros before hos. My friends are hella more important than any romantic interest.
3. Emotions hehehehe...you're kidding right robert? You just wrote me a letter about how you feel about me and a relationship that I moved on from months ago. Give it up, foo.

I haven't actually put much writing on here, like 2 things?

I think my other stuff might get me banned for its randomness.

BTW thanks for the props anyways Cybris

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Ooowww! She just burned you d-o

You kinda fit in to this grim necro forum better then most people think, Pineappleystuff

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hahahahah, pineappley=grim necro!?

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Romantic interest is always primary in my bookand thatr would be Denny. It's God, then family, and then friends.
And you're welcome.

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me being grim:

Somewhere out there. A chair exists and this chair has a missing leg. That is sad. Someone will probably sit in that chair and hurt themselves. Especially if there is a big rock on their head. Then they will die and death is grim.


(uncontrollable giggles)

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ooooo god

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"Ooowww! She just burned you d-o" yeah, I just got my ass whooped. yay, i've been beat by a girl. thanks for all the encouragement and support "Lord" Soul. whatever.

Miss Pineapples, check this out.
1) "1. I don't like punk rock that much anymore. That was a phase. I don't listen to any one particular genre and I am NOT 'punk'"
it's okay, i know you're not "punk". once again, it's okay, i don't care, you're cool and i was just messin' with you.

2) "2. Bros before hos. My friends are hella more important than any romantic interest."
I know, that also was a joke. but i'm not going to say anything more on that.
3) "3. Emotions hehehehe...you're kidding right robert? You just wrote me a letter about how you feel about me and a relationship that I moved on from months ago. Give it up, foo."
hey, guess what? that also was a joke, and you know what? I'm just messin' with you, it's okay, get over it. I don't know why I wrote the letter, I think the main reason was because I wanted to get some things out, and I also wanted to give you back a pick. also, i am over it. it's over. that's all. nothing more. just friends. there's nothing else there and I KNOW that! please stop acting like i'm completely stupid. thank you for your precious time Miss Tracy.

on another note, i almost got stoned last night, it would have been fun, but my friend couldn't get his hands on anything, so we just smoked regular a little. it was funny, andy's friend Ryan came over with his girlfriend, and Ryan and his girlfriend were bangin' it out in his bedroom, then, while we were crabbin' andy took the girl to her house and then they banged. it was so freakin' funny, 'cause Ryan was askin' andy all this stuff about what they did, and Andy was lyin' through his teeth, but Ryan Believed him! what a dumb little ****er.

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Don't get upset d-o. I was just fun'in around with you. You haven't been beat by anyone, and you curtainity have my support and blessings for whatever reasons. I am no lord, but I do like the way it sounds. I do believe you are hanging out with some crazy folk and have some issues about your currant life situation. You're a smart dude so get fucked up in the wrong things.

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ewww gross. sounds like d-o has a slut in his midst.

Robert......smoking? please tell me this is another joke. Don't smoke unless you have a death wish. If it isn't a joke, you need to f*ckin stop. now. please. Why are you doing it? to be cool? its not cool. its disgusting. You'll just get yourself in trouble. there is no point. Don't get stoned either. I've seen too many people get in trouble for doing shit like that and there is no point.

plus, drug breath is NAYSTAY!!!!!!!!!

not smart, robert. not smart.


and with that I think you have yet to prove that you are not completely stupid.

GROW UP AND START MAKING MATURE DESCISIONS FOR YOUR OWN SAKE.

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Stay grim and necro, applish. The chair thing was creative

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dude! it was one puff! i know it's gross, and i'm not gonna do it again.
Lord Soul, i'm not mad, i was just messin' around, all's cool.

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you can be very mature about drug use. www.erowid.org

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One puff of what, crack, weed, cig?

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He said he smoked some Regular Thats some hardcore evil shit He could have killed himself

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regs. Weed isnt that bad. I dont do it anymore but i used to when i was a kid. Weed isnt bad for you really. Not in one single case has anyone died from overdose on weed. And weed doesnt make you fail at school. It makes you lazy. Which as long as you want to you can do good and get high at the same time.

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I beg to differ. After conducting a long term study on the subject I discovered one of the greatest astronomers ever, Carl Sagan , smoked pot and his wife was the VP of NORML. So that's my defense against laziness. There is a huge difference between using and abusing anything. I don't do it anymore because of health related issues and I figured it was time to get a new hobby anyways. I have no more concentration or energy than I did when I partied. Although sometimes I did get a bit ripped I was ALWAYS capable of making rational decisions and only drove once while under its influence. That was out of necessity and I never did that again. I'd rather someone did that than drink. When I found out I was pregnant either time I stopped immediately without any problem. If there was a crisis in my life I also quit. This time I'm just not interested in it anymore.

The thing I am concerned about is the girl passing around the std's which from the sounds of it she;'s more than willing to share. And don't give me the scpeil about --oh, she's clean--bullshit. If she's got that little self esteem , which is what it boils down to, if she doesn't have them she, boyfriends and girlfriends, and one had a one-nighter at college with some guy she'd just met. They all have herpes and genital warts now. Believe me sex is not as important as MTV makes it out to be. The one girl didn't tell her current b/f that she had it til after the fact and then when they broke up she didn't tell the next guy til it was too late either. Then she went back to the original guy and her last b/f went back with his g/f who was the one who got warts from the college guy. None of them were 'angels' so who knows who else they got what from. It's not worth it. I'm glad I was only with 2 guys all my life. Monogamy is an incredibly sexy thing.

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okay. what do y'all mean by regs? all i meant was they were just regular cigs, nothing more, nio weed, no nothing.just cigs. and i only had one puff, i'm not gonna die! what really stank was that i came home from his house with bloodshot eyes 'cause we'd just been to the beach, and we stayed up all night, and watched a couple movies. so my eyes were shot. and my parents were a little worriedabout drugs i think, but i just told them that i hadn't done anything, and that we'd just stayed up all night, so all's cool. and the whole sex thing? they're just idiots. i don't know why anyone would defile their body like that. i mean, with all the risks out there.......i'm just saying there are better ways. [i.e. get married, don't sleep around, whatever.]
once again, don't worry about me, i'm cool. i'm not going to go out and kill myself on all that stuff, i'm smarter than that.
Pineapples, i just heard from Johnny, he's in austin tx. we're going to get together sometime soon.

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"regs" is the term used for regular weed, usually some of the cheapest. And a cig, wow thats not dumb. I smoke cigs, and they arent terribly bad, they get me through my day without having to kill someone

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Regulars? I was just playing along. I was hoping you could tell me want they were and you did. I thought that you meant cigs, but you called them regular and I exploited that by making it sound like it was some new hardcore drug, Mwuahhahahahaa.

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your a manipulative bastard

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just do whatever you want, dont die and dont start missing your life because youre high all the time

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d-o you worry me. you really do.


Oh, and thank you soul.

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HAHAHAHAHA !!!! (Russian accent) Ve have vays of making you talk.

People are fun to play with sometimes, aren't they? I'm the brunt of many outlandish topics so I'm at both ends of the specrtum.

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is warpulgis your son?

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*uncontrolled laughter emitting from the bowels of my very being*
that was for you Gram.

Y'all, once again, i'm not stupid. don't worry about me apples. there are more people to worry about, not just me, and more important people to be worried about (i.e. Carroll. you should see what she did when she broke up with John.)
on a nicer note, apples, i talked with John and Paul for something like 2-3 hours last night. it was awesome. i'm going to see how much a plane ticket would cost, and then i'll probably fly over there. or get them to come here.

chill

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tis funny that you be flying here. On August 31 I'm flying from here to Georgia to visit my boyfriend for a week. then we're coming back here and he's gonna stay here and visit his home (Er liebt deutschland) for 3 weeks b4 I force him to go back to college and get an edumehcation.



Oh and LB




I am the viper! I come to vipe and vash your vindows!


:P

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You don't know vat your are saying, dear pineapplyschtuff ! I've just 2 days fore macheted a path to my dining room windows ! I come from a long line of pack rats of which I am finally sifting chaff from grain. You wanna do my windows? Go for it !!!


d_o--I don't know what I'm gonna do with you , boy. "*uncontrolled laughter emitting from the bowels of my very being*"---that's called a fart, not laughter. Although they may sound similar coming from you !! HAHA !!! I'm just messing with ya.

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uh huh ,my baby boy yeti.

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hah. i guess i need to use a different word then. how about..............*uncontrolled laughter emitting from the HEART of my very being* that better? yeah, i just realized what the other was........heh heh heh.

Pineapples, i'm talking about flying out to Texas, not GE. sorry, i should have been more clear, it's probably not going to happen anyway.

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this is like a mini rtt

is his name really walpurgis

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LB'XXX sounds like the coolest mom ever. Adopt me any time

especially because she likes metal

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heehee Do you realize how many people on the net call me 'mom' already? There's one guy who's only about 10 years younger than me who does. What's a couple hundred more. And I do bitch so don't think I wouldn't do that. I'll slap you around and tell you that you're screwing up.

And no, his real name isn't Walpurgis. It's Bob. He said he wants to go into partnership with someone named Neil so when people ask him who owns the business he can tell them "Neil and Bob". He's a really sick person. I trained him well.

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hey, me too. my parents are cool and all, but yeah, i wanna nother family so bad. the Ernests are the closest i've ever come to having another family. oh well.
hey, i just split my middle finger on my left hand open waterskiing, so it's really hard to type, or play guitar. that's what really bums me out, i don't get to play Carroll[ine] (my guitar) for a couple weeks.
stinks.

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Hey, flip that puppy over and play like Hendrix.

I've wanted another family , too, but mine won't go away...... My mother put her applesauce on her garlic bread in a restaurant tonight before she realized what she did..... And my kids think I'm bad..... It's environmentally hereditary so look out!

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hahahaha, did she eat it anyways

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Of course ! Do you really think she'd waste good applesauce and garlic bread? I teased her about creating a new taste sensation. She didn't think it would catch on though.

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hahaa, gross

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that's funny
and i'm no hippie, so i not play like Jimi (wow that rhymed)

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Why is this thread still open

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because we are sneakier than you.

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i think becuase people see that this is a thread started by pineappleystuff and theyre like "oh shit, i dont think i can take any more of her randomness" and ignore it






kidding.

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nice. funny, and cruel, but nice.

love you transient. you're so cool.

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I am going to try that

your so gay that posting on the same thread as you makes me feel gay

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i think that's one of the stupidest things i've ever heard said.

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tee hee


enough of this ass ramming

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How did this thread get started?

I know that pineappleystuff started it, but I kinda think that d-o talked her into coming here because of some subconscious......... reasons

What is the real story... Will anyone comment?

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really? you think so Lord Soul?

I think you are wrong. Yes, I did talk her into coming here, but not for those reasons you think. Indeed, have you not seen her attitude towards me? it is anything BUT warm and friendly. in fact, i think i would call it maybe cold and ruthless, and also like she's looking down on me. so why did i tell her to come here? because she was answering no one's emails and everyone wanted to know where she was.
i know, i know, it's not a juicy as you would like, i'm sorry, the truth sucks.
i guess i could lie.............................but that wouldn't be me would it now?

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I kinda thought you might have told her to join here, but the rest of it... I was just trying to start shit Just fun. I'm glad you took it well. To lie about it would be wrong anyway.

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i bet nihilist shits his pants if he sees this thread

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Haha, yes he will

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hahaha dude youre the biggest post whore to grace thos forum yet

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no





















just smile and nod

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It's good to have goals

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indeed it is Lord Soul, 'deed it is, i think my goal will be to beat you............someday

like that'll ever happen though

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I still have a long way to go before I catch some folks here.

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haha

im a post whore myself but i dont postunless i have something to say

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yeah, BLS and people like him are the real post whores

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WoOOOOo!. JUst got back from the sunny isle of Ibiza. Except for all of the techno floating around it was lush. I stayed for a week and met these English lads so I chilled with them all week. I adopted some brit slang. They were trying to pull me even though they knew that I had a boyfriend. They said they'd come to germany for Oktoberfest. They're funny when they're pissed.

Ahem. I don't look down on you rob. The reason why I wasn't answering any e-mails is because my e-mail stopped working. If you really want my new e-mail you have to ask for it.

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Where the hell did you go.

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trying to "pull you" ?

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I ask

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Brits use some funny slang, but so do Yanks A whole battle group of brits, like 8+ ships, came here to Norfolk to play war games with Americans Navy 3 weeks ago. Well, they get shore leave while here and they have fun I love the Royal Navy Saliors, they are so funny. It's like the only requirement to be in the Royal Navy is to drink large quatities of alcohol, fight on the drop of a dime, then buy the opponent a drink, tell some jokes, find someone else to fight with, buy some more drinks, make more friends, fight someone else, buy drinks, insult others in a polite manner, try to "pull" my wife , fight and drink more... They are so fun to hangout with.

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nice, that describes the whole of britain i think. completely different culture than here isn't it? [e.g. it's rude to tell our kids to shut up, but not to them .............]

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i always thought brits were uptight

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Some are in wierd ways, but they are just normal people too.

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I had fun. The only snobbish brits are the posh ones.

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