I wrote this several years ago when I had a disturbing dream about my boy ,Mike. It describes pretty accurately my feelings at that time. PST88 and I were discussing Barber's "Adagio for Strings" and I read this one time with that in the background. They don't fit together in complete length but I thought they matched moods well. I thought I'd see what you guys thought of it. To me ,I think it's one of my best. As always, thanks for reading.

"Not Afraid to Cry"

I had a dream that was so real I could feel it.
An all consuming sorrow clear to my soul.
You looked at me and looked away and wouldn't say a word.
I couldn't speak. I could only feel a hold around my heart.
No words could come from me-
I didn't know what to say,
But soundless tears came down even in my sleep.
I knew without the words that we were saying goodbye.
Saying goodbye.
It might have been forever.
When I think about it now-
I still get tears in my eyes.
Tears from part of our lives changing.
Tears from memories we've made.
Tears of pain from losing others.
Tears from hurt we never forgave.
I didn't want the dream to end.
I tried to stay asleep.
I wanted to say more than I could have ever said.
Let me sleep, let me stay there-
Until I can say what I mean.
How heavy is the heart that has no words-
That needs to touch a hand-
That needs to cry.
And I cried.
And it faded.
And I awoke to a tear-stained pillow,
A passionate sadness in my heart,
And I cried.
Even as I wrote the dream-
I cried.

I had a dream that was so real I felt it.
An all consuming sorrow clear to my soul.
You looked at me and looked away and wouldn't say a word.
I couldn't speak, I could only feel a hold around my heart.
No words could come from me-
I didn't know what to say,
But soundless tears came down even in my sleep.
I knew without the words that we were saying goodbye.
Saying goodbye
BJH

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i like it. snnif*
that's only because if i tried to write like that,
it would end up being a satanic suicide note.

damn i have not been able to write at all lately.
my mind is bored.

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cool, you can feel the emotion, it could definetly work in a song!

^---- masterfull



lots of cool sentences in this stuff, I like it.

p'o't- That would be interesting. Maybe that's what you should do for a piece is a 'satanic suicide note'. Just give it a twist. I know you're a decent writer. I'm sure you'll come up with something. That old block is a pain sometimes though. And thanks !

Def- Thanks, glad you liked it.





for Wally !! Dough!i mean for Wally !!

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