Picture if you will
I'm in the dusty basement of the club down the street
There's an audience down here over six foot deep
And I'm staring at the celestion speakers
Of the cab connected to the amp to the guitar
Of one of my favourite bands
It's times like this when I get down
I can't explain why
Just sometimes it seems like I can't enjoy mrself
Because there's too much shit and indeed I'm too shit
To be allowed this luxury
There's bombs and starving kids and disease
But these aren't actually the things I care about
I'm more concerned with how I'm going to find the energy
To get out of bed and face work tomorrow
Or why I go to work in the first place
To be surrounded with things I don't like
A) The consumer B) Marketing ploys C) Co workers
I don't want to get up and deal with those things
Because everyone has it less hard than me.
What am I talking about?
People have it far harder than me
So I feel worse for feeling worse
Oh my God do you see the problem?
I don't have the reckoning and reasoning to live in a place I don't enjoy
Society as a whole gets me down
And although it's a fabulous concept
Community is a joke
I hate the way that love is a fabricated emotion these days
I don't like the weather
There's too many people pretending to be things they aren't
I don't know how to interpret the actions of my closest friends and family
I'm too paranoid to love or trust because thoughts of ingenious criminalistic mastermind schemes weaved through time see hyper realistic to me
I get up way too early to accomodate the time I decide to sleep
I can't face a day filled with problems without the energy to solve them
But I'm sitting in this basement listening to the music of the band
And at this very second I'm thinking about the self help show I saw today
There really really are people worse off than me that deal with life with much greater ease
Could these people be an inspiration?
They say that there is a light at the end of the tunnel
Can there be a light for me?
And suddenly the key of this song changes from minor to... Major!
I can't keep living like this
I need to organise my life and look at things in a less realistic manner than what I'm used to
Or maybe that realistic manner that I'm used to is actually a mentally fabricated wall around my heart
Either way I need to think more positive
I need to surround myself with more positive things
While keeping in touch with all my depressed friends so I can help them too!
Life couldn't possibly be all bad
There must be something I'm here for!
I'm too young to go on living life as a washed up scum sucker that doesn't care enough about direction to make a change
I have to do things right!
O thank you Jesus
Thank you God,
Thank you Mum and Dad
Thank you audience for listening - We are Thunderfish GOODNIGHT!

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