lyrics I wrote for some Virginia Tech-related songs that I'm doing for a split or something with a friend

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Doubtful of resolve-
this can not end well.
Stuck days.
Endless cycles.
Itching, twitching skin.
A negative body image to the point where
I. Want. To. Vomit...
everything from the inside comes out.

Addicted to pornography.
Contradicting myself,
a hypocrite,
curled up in a corner ingesting pills that I allow to be (i imagine) forcefully shoved upon me.
Chemical imbalances

Hate spreader.
Shit bearer.
Toxic inks and stolen sticky papers.

Intolerable
hate spreader.
Untrustworthy
shit bearer.
Undependable dead man in endless cycles.
Flesh never breaks,
it only goes so far.

Scabs replace dry skin
Scabs replace dry skin
Eyelids cut
Alternate realities keeping one awake at night
Moving forward/never thought I would hate progression
Just like
"no please im sorry"
Trying to cut the hair off faster than it spreads
Trying to not cut the genitalia off before is consumes
Trying not to consume
Trying not to spread

Use to say greetings
They twisted down down down down
into drain pipes like fleeting memories
Memory itching the back of the brain I can feel it through my skin
Too much skin

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Life will always suck
Life will never be fair
And I will always be waiting for it to end
Riddled with fucking bullets

I want to be a martyr
To finally mean something
I will go down in history and all will know my name
Riddled with fucking bullets

I want to feel a young girl's arms
Wrapped around my battered body
To shield me from these demons in human forms
Riddled with fucking bullets

Ridiculed when I reach out
Laughed at when I attempt to speak
I'm stomped down every chance they get
Riddled with fucking bullets

Selfish children, greedy so greedy
Never enough physical-material
Handed it all and always wanting so much more
Riddled with fucking bullets

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Who can say they've never been here?
Stripped and exposed and vulnerable.
Opening yourself to those you hate,
attempting to find understanding.
Pouring out your heart.

Ridicule
No one understands you do they?
Trying to find your place in a world of shit filth
Carving out cries
"This is where I am
where I don't want to be.
This is where I am
someone please come help me."

Nothing worse than reaching out
and getting a slap in the face.
Being spit on, laughed at
when all you want is someone to listen
Ridicule vicious laughter
No one understands you do they?

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heres one:

i am a fucking dumb asian retard manson listener
i have stupid hair and no fashion sense
im not well adjusted enough to know what is good and what is bad
i write scripts but they suck too much and i hate myself
i hate everyone else because im not cool
its my problem that im not cool, because i could change, but im too retarded to notice
i think im deep and smart but in reality the only thing i have is an xbox
sonic is the best
i dont like mario, because he is more mainstream than sonic.
i hate the mainstream because im not smart enough to get along with anyone who has interests outside of my own
i blame everyone else for my problems
im going to school to play time crisis 4 today.

BOOM

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worship me for i am teh teh!!@!!1

yeah that guy was a complete fucking retard that like other nerds/ freaks couldn't just stay in their parents basement and slowly rot while playing world of warcraft

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This is where I am
where I don't want to be.
This is where I am
someone please come help me.

I thought this would be an awesome way to the finish the song but good lyrics nonetheless

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That last one was the best.