I wrote this months and months ago when my bf broke up with me for odd reasons. its not the greatest, it was written kind of spontaneously. but umm yeah we got back together and now we're married. but enjoy it.


Red Satin Sheets by: me.

I'm no expert on photography
But I've got these
white framed square memories
your smiling
carefree
and suddenly
I flashback to where the flashbulb cracked
On the 1 am train station melodies
before we wore down the
thin parts in my satin sheets
After we both stopped playing the tease
We were in my bed, May 23
I'm left with graphic imagery
of how you always aimed to please
You never failed to hit the target
You were more than I ever thought you could be
This past tastes too real to have been a fantasy
You're a boy with some feeling
Those brown doe eyes sparkling
with the love you had for me.
Did you, like me, ever weep
pathetically
for the joy in finding a love with some tangibility?
But, it's August 18
I look like a baby
trying to stop
crying
I need to sleep
I need to breathe
But you left your mark on these godamn satin sheets
I can smell your skin its so very very very very sweet
there's a dent in the mattress where you would be.
I can almost feel that everglowing heat
when we moved into another dimension
just you
just me
I miss that other reality
It's easy to miss something as lovely
because I'm naked, alone, and freezing
someone turned on the AC
In that dent, my tears are puddling
You're hands are not where they ought to be (touching me touching you touching me)
You're an ocean away, in germany
Dependant on the motherfucking army
just drinking
dreaming
thinking unhealthy
When I called you, you told me
that you were afraid
and feeling so lonely
It made me a little sick
cuz all I want is you to be happy (and love me)
not depressed and feeling very
much like everything is crashing
a rainstorm raping to the bottom of the sea
I don't want to beg you, but I'm on my knees (lustful familiarity...)
Please
stop this negativity
stare at the sidewalk
honey
don't look forward to a false destiny (me leave???never to be...)
You told me to "Stare at the sidewalk"
and honey you said that
whenever I had worried
So take that (It's a suckerpunch)
from a little girl that loves you completely
when you take some leave (If you still want me)
I'll take your hand
and we'll finish off those satin sheets.

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I had some good parts and it had some rambles that would probably only be emotionally involving to you and you guy. It wasn't abd though. The dents in the mattress part I thought was pretty cool and the way you rounded off the ending brought it together. That's cool that after the rain the two of you saw some sunshine.

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thanks LB! <3 yeah i know there are some rambley bits but as i said it was a really tumultuous time for me. but I'm glad you liked it!

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Radiates with affectionate lust, and that is cool, and the knees part is witty. Sexy poems written by girls are always interesting to me for some reason. Wouldn't use it as a lyric or publish it as a poem because the personal factors leave out a lot of the audience, but it shows off your general style and it shows promise.

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