why? I 'd rather call it tantric-ish.

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i dont know, as long as your blowing him i suppose he will survive

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noo. he actually would rather being going down on me. He'd rather give than receive.

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looks like youve caught yourself a homosexuall

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hell no. silly trans, he likes to watch me moan that's all. BTW: he's joined this site as divinity_lost66695

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hah


this thread is getting pretty sexy

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you so silly.

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indeed

so hows things going in glorious Germany ?

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it's getting could already, school starts on tuesday, I spent all day watching my boyfriend pity me while I spent all day purging my room. things aren't that glorious.

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yeah, chilly here too

school starts this wednesday

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I'm listening to the bloodhound gang and my brother whining xuz he won't take out the dog.

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hah, they suck

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naw. they6're funny. crass, but funny.

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to each his own

i think its finally autumn around here

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here to. oddly enough , the sky finaly cleared up and there hasn't been a single cloud for days but it's cooled of considerably. It's gonna be a great autumn in bavaria.

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ah man, youre lucky

i dont remember last autumn at all..... the first half of the school year is pretty much non existant in my memory

but its still the same old colors in NY, but far better than 90 degrees and steamy like it is in the summer

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90 and stemy sounds uncomfortable. I want a chalupa and I don't know why?

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i dont know why you would either

its gotten colder here now though

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I know im super fucking late to this thread, but i loved it. I could really see that made professionally into a "short film". Or maybe thats just because of the way I imagine what i am reading.

thank you sooo much for posting on the story! nobody read it at all. unless they are Transient, soulinsane, LB, dying-oath or def. and i think that's about it.

I'm glad you liked it!

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hahah yeah, i always wonder what people like nihilist think when they see this thread

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i have a general idea, it sounds something like "Tools"

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hahaha im sure

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Why me?

because youre very serious and seem a bit cranky at times...

no offense. mods have to be

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ach. I am tired. nothing fun happens here on metaltabs anymore. someone please post something contraversial.

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hrmmmm


i have sex with little boys

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that is just wrong man.

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sorry


NOW its starting to get cold, sweatshirt weather in the morning !

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sorry for the hiatus, I am just really getting bored. have someone harass me or something or oooo join my cult!

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Hey Applish, I'm back! Did you miss me? If you are bored then tell us a story. and we well tell you one in return. Sound far?

And did d-o commit suicide or something?

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d-o...eh i hear he's still around.

I missed you so much! nobody likes me except you and transient (well you are the only two that i am sure are my pals)

Powder puff football ended yesterday. twas a bit traumatizing. Guys wore cheerleading outfits and had a tournament. we won.
Girls had a flag football tournament the next day (yesterday) and it kinda got brutal. My foot might be a little broken and I feel like a giant bruise. I hurt all over. ouch. Some other chick got sent to the hospital in an ambulance with a slight concussion and a neck brace. I hope she's ok. It was fun while it lasted though.

I was an offensive lineman (linegirl really)

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When a girls innocent flag football game goes very bad ... Sounds like a TV news special!

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hehehe

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hahaha great to see you back pineappely

there was a powderpuff game here in the states too.

how ya been?

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I have a cold. I'm going to lose my viriginity on halloween.

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dont tell me youre screwing on halloween to get "kvlt" status???

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no, just for the sheer sake of setting a date that I won't forget. If I picked oh lets say October21 I would never remember to lose my virginity that day.

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like right now

what the flying fuck is this doing in poetry?

to chit chat with ya'r ass

How about your wedding night! I bet that's something you would like to remember and your husband someday would be happy you waited too. Make him feel special Wouldn't it make you feel special he waited for you?
Plus you can get married and make drunken monkey love all on just one Holloween

Ms. Soulinsane and I were going to get married that day ourselves, but I was going to be in Afganistan during Holloween that year so we did it in June instead.

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soul bless your heart for serving the us

we love ya for it


and pineappely-i guarantee youd remember october 21st just as well. its an important thing, at least ive always thought

and def-ages ago this thread WAS about a poem .....hahaha

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Thank you so much Transient...NOW CHANGE YOUR AVATAR!!!

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NEVER

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I don't want to be all inexperienced and crap when I get married. that would suck.

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BTW here's a new ending. tell me i you like this one better or not.


He followed my eyes. He said, “Or were you trying to get rid of a pest, of something that has been coaxing you away from your tribulation that you hold so dear? Poor little bug.”
I couldn’t take it.
I allowed my eyes to pour the salt and bitterness that had possessed me forever.
I gushed ,in torrents, my story and my fears and let my tongue run wild with the air I was spitting out. Most of it didn’t make any sense at all but I think he understood me. Maybe he didn’t feel sympathy or empathy or anything at all, I never knew him. My selfishness had kept me from becoming something worthy of his attention. Albeit, selfishness is something that so many people take for granted. “Everyone cares too much about other people”, I always thought. I was afraid of everything and dependent on everything. In short, I was inevitably, everything I never wanted to be.
Delusional and dazed and wallowing in the destruction of myself I began to drift off into that glorious wax puddle of sleep that we all experienced as children and never really remembered. I ceased to see people as objects and as I drifted I realized that it was a sort of death I was coming to, leaving myself behind. Rewinding and rerecording might be easy enough.
When I awoke, he was gone and so was I. Grabbing the keys to my car, I slipped behind the wheel and pulled out of the driveway, I was going to start over with a clean slate and live! I would be alive! Death was just not appealing anymore.
I said to myself, “To live would be a great adventure.”
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its nice. i can agree with part of it, ive always thought you should get your shit in order before you start caring about other people

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You have a writing gift Applish You should also post in the RRT's sometimes. They are just a thread for ramdom shit but sometimes you find meaningful stuff there and you can meet others.

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eh I might. but I already have so much fun here! we changed our plans. Zachary and I are going to have sex tommorrow instead of halloween, with our pals around on halloween (whence we would be doing some scooby-dooing-aka looking around this ancient cemetery) it would be quite impossible so tommorrow it is! I am so excited. I love him and I have never been quite this comfortable around anyone before and just thinking about him has a soothing and yet thrilling effect on me. Ok I'm getting mushy and shit so I'm gonna go to sleep now cuz it's one in the morning here in germany.

nighty night.

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hrm. have fun

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dude my friend brandon made cupcakes today and I pissed him off cuz i took every single one of them and licked the frosting off in front of him. He chased me around until zac made him stop and stole all the cupcakes......it was an interesting day.

of course I'll have fun, I like a bit of pain

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Don't do it... That's all I will stay, but I'm sure you will anyway I hope he loves you just as much.

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yeah don't do it! Premarital sex is gay



'cause Bush won't let em get married

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Bush has power in Germany too! OMG

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no he doesn't, what crack are you smoking?

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It's the crack I'm drinking tonight

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I have lost my innocence,

I don't regret it at all! It was fantastic. Very slow and sensual and absolutley perfect. and we snuggled and kissed afterwards. Love manifest.

I am ecstatic and kind of out of it today. lalalala......

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haha, youre a stange chick

btw check the rtt John Zorn somewhere around 220 or higher i posted my picture

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i replied on the last page. so what if I'm strange? I'm cute and that's all that matters.

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Great, just great! Now Metaltabs has lost it's virgin sacrifice and will have to find another ...... Hey Transient! I seen that picture of you and if you still look the same today then I bet that there is something you're not telling us

Anyway, glad it was special for you, Applish, seriously.

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age me mentally 12 years and thats how i look, i really do look the same

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glad to hear your first time was a succes! SLUT

should i post my real picture now? i kind of like all this attention

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NO, absolutely not



FORNICATING HEATHEN

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I'm a virgin, too !

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shut up, you had sex with wally's dad, so you could have wally

unless wally is adopted
is wally adopted?

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Lol.


Omg, the only sickos that are eating up this girl's stories are Transient and Soulinsane...why am I not surpirzed...


Now, I will go into unimaginable detail about how I lost my snakes virginity...

No offence PineapplesUpAss or whatever your name implies, but I find it disturbing when a girl is "teasing" guys over the internet.


"I'm cute and that's all that matters."

Do you have to come to where a bunch of filthy metalheads embrace and love each other?!...Anyway, I really don't care how good looking you are, go try to boost your self image some place else.

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its ok, we won't tell anyone

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You are out of line this time, Assmoth

Use your fucking brain before you shoot your angsty mouth off. I see other poeple using this thread, so don't ever assume you know a damn thing about me and call me a sicko. You don't know what the fuck you are talking about, so don't ever mention shit about me or talk about me like this for now on.

Do you understand? I'm tired of you always starting shit.

On a serious note. It's your post like the above that makes me think that you might actually be gay sometimes. Even that or you just feel angry toward all females.

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OUCH

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what are you talking about bass, we chat probably once every three days ago about whats goin on. its not like hitting on her, for christs sake, shes in germany. youre an idiot, stop trying to flail your e-wang in peoples faces

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Haha, settle down everyone.


I'ts not like your hitting on her but I mean it almost looks like that.You guys are eating up her stories about virginity and so forth..regardless of where she lives..


Yes, Soulinsane I am gay, even though I posted a picture with me and my girlfriend. Anyway, I'm not going to throw out anymore insults.

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lol sprout some balls then maybe I'll give a damn about what you say.

Personally, i don't care what he says. I seriously don't. why? you ask. why not defend your self-image and integrity in the face of insult? here's why.

1. I have some maturity. Why should I care what some random stranger says about me on a forum? he has no effect on my life or well-being so he along with his comments are irrelevant to me.

2. Obviously he has some mental disease if he thinks he is divinely granted the power and authority to make reasonably believable judgements about people he doesn't know. It's just not right for me to be cruel to the mentally-ill.

3. I pity him. I really do. Just the fact that he can only seem to get negative attention is upsetting. It's even more disturbing that he wants it and encourages it.

4. Soulinsane and Transient never ate up my stories about viriginty. We eat up each other posts regardless of subject. It has been an ongoing correspondence between all three of us that has had many different subjects.

5. The whole "it doesn't matter cuz I'm cute" thing was sarcasm. Holy pigshit batman! Grow up and learn to take a joke!

6. as transient said, we just tell what's going on in our lives. Nobody cares about my story anyway cuz it wasn't that good. That's why the subject changes alot.

7. I'm no going to waste any more time on a person not worth wasting time on.

later days my heathen homies.

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lol enough enough!

do you speak enough german to take classes in german or what? how do you work your education

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Naw I live on a US military base over here and there's an american high-school for us army brats. I have taken german classes though, for the hell of it.

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"lol sprout some balls then maybe I'll give a damn about what you say.

Personally, i don't care what he says. I seriously don't. why? you ask. why not defend your self-image and integrity in the face of insult? here's why."

Dumb hypocritical bitch.

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id imagine if you lived in germany german would be a good thing to know...

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No, Wally was NOT adopted much to his dismay, but we do have a running joke about Thurmon Thomas being his dad. And Denny said he isn't his dad cuz he was out at sea.

Lies ! Lies! Lies ! Of course, the Akron Zips are his brother's dad so go figure....

I'll throw my 2 cents in about this post. The post got carried away at the lyric forum and 98% of it could have been pm-d to each other as it was not about the original post at all. Someone likes the exhibitionism or they wouldn't have kept up a non-poetic/non-lyrical thread . Maturity and couth went out the window. Whether you like the sound of it or not, some of us were drowning in the drool. Not that my opinion matters mind you.

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eh, I'm done here on metaltabs. I'm packing up and moving out. If anyone cares to contiue correspondence with me you can reach me at

tracyw@gaggle.net

OR

kimchiliscious@yahoo.com


Aufweidersehn! Thanks for the fun times.

BTW: when I say I'm leaving metaltabs I mean i am leaving and will not visit this site again.

Tschuss!

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Before you go I want to ask you something...

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Would this have to do with d-o? I seen that he was on yesterday for the first time in months and the only thing he did was write a really long pivate message to someone, but I don't know who. Can you clearify?

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he wrote one to me. he was very defensive. he didn't tell me to leave, but it does have something to do with him.. I'm just done with metaltabs. Time to find a new forum to infiltrate. I am following the winds....lol.anything else before I go?

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No. I just wondered if the two events were related. You will be missed, Applish.

Always remember the most important lesson of all on Metaltabs... Be grim and be Nerco.

With that now being said, I can never leave Metaltabs. It's my haunt. I'm comdemed forever to this green abyss. You will be missed. Where ever you go.... there you are!

Good bye

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well hugs and jellybeans for you! I'm going to find a happier place.

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Time for this thread to die

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I'll miss you!

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ill try and write you. if i forget...have a good life!

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I knew you would

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